How Jojie Has Changed Me

Surprise bebe and Happy 28th loves!

Today, September 06, marks our 28-month into this beautiful and wonderful relationship. That was crazy fast life, huh? There are times na we both thought na kahapon lang ang lahat, na magtatanungan kami na "Bakit? Tayo na ba?" Like we just in the beginning.

In the early months of 2019 is really a hard moments for me. I was most of time feeling down, I anticipated sadness every time and every where I go like no one was there for me through it all Jojie was there to comfort me. I was so amazed how patient he was at that time. I felt hopeless that even him will give up on me. 

Looking back at first we rarely have things in common. He enjoys playing games and discovering techy stuff under the sun while me is from very afar, I'm always occupied with a lot of things, career-life and studies. He enjoys much of his time while I was struggling most of the time kung ano dapat ko unahin at dapat gawin. I was so restless. Then I came to realize that it's not wrong to be different or to have differences. From there, he taught me na may mga bagay na hindi ko dapat sobrang pag-aalahanin o hindi lahat ng bagay dapat ko pagsabay sabayin, na okay lang na I am not my very best all of the time. I learned from him that it's normal to calm and take things easy. I like it that I'm learning more about Jojie and myself deeper every single day. I like to love that we end laughing from things na dati kailangan pa namin pag-awayan/pagtampuhan. I like it we are discovering life together, and we are in this journey and not all about the destination.

Jojie and I are so blessed that we have found each other in this time of our lives na we ready to face reality and not the fairytale expectation relationship. I was asking pa nga na “Bakit ngayon lang tayo nagkatagpo?” Na I was hoping I met him earlier in my life then I stopped and realized that I am not what I am now not just because of what I was before. My past relationship hone to be perfectly fit for him in our right time. In that situation, we experience huge fights and deep drama then lie-low to a petty tampuhan nalang because we found out later on how to find ways into each others hearts. We are constantly growing together, I must say that universe seems to be kind to us and we’re forever grateful that we’ve gone this far. Mostly because both of us are so content with our life together and with each other. I even pray for him to come and he is answered prayer that God has sent to me.

With all my heart I can honestly say that I am blessed to have found Jojie because he really grounds me. He is HONESTLY my other half and I’ve grown so much as an individual because of him. His heart is so genuine, his mind is so beautiful and I can only hope to share some of the life changing values he has brought to my life.

I used to be immature when I was in my previous relationships, I’d make small issues to cause huge fights because I felt so unloved back then. I couldn’t see that I was wrong noon. I just felt that I should be loved the way I should demand. But through a little bit of realization and letting go of pride, I saw it clearly. When Jojie and I were start dating I remember he’d always laughing at me when I was being too emotional, or when I worried about something that hadn’t even happened yet. From then, his overflowing positivity in life showed me a brighter rainbow in every downfall we experience together.

I know that’s a lot more to learn as we go along, but I want to be the type of person who knows how to find joy in self-discovery with the one I truly love and I hope everyone too. At the end of the day, what matters are the relationships you’ve built and the people you have in your life. Treasure them, make time for them and grow with them.

Iloveyou, bebe!

Yours forever,

Sese